I know it’s been a long time since I have updated everyone. What can I say, I’ve been busy! This has been a summer of many changes. I need to share this exciting news with you though. My surgery was finally approved last week and I am having Roux-En-Y Gastric Bypass tomorrow morning at 10:15 a.m. The surgery takes about an hour and a half and I will be in the hospital for 2-5 days.
The minute I found out my surgery date, I started eating the foods that I used to love. I needed my last time with them, I needed a clean break. In a lot of ways, food has been my everything. My best friend, my boyfriend, my family. I wanted the break-up to end on my own terms. I had a filet mignon at The Keg, I had fettuccine alfredo at my favourite local Italian restaurant, I had ice cream and cheesecake and pizza and all of the things I used to indulge in so often. I’m not saying I will never eat those things ever again, but it will be a long time. I have learned a lot through my six month post-op diet and one thing was moderation. So someday, when I can eat those things again, they will only be for a very special occasion.
Five days ago I started a clear liquid diet and I must warn everyone, it’s been hell! I’ve been moody and hungry. All you can have is water, juice, tea, popsicles, jello and broth. I will continue this diet for 1-2 weeks after my surgery. Honestly, I can’t wait until this phase is over. I never thought I’d be so excited to have a smoothie.
In preparation for the big day tomorrow, I thought I would post some before pictures. Maybe some people would be embarrassed to have these online, but I know in a few months I will look back on these and be proud. I will be so proud of how far I have come. So here we go, let’s check out my life-long struggle with obesity.
I started having a weight problem in Kindergarten. I wasn’t obese, but I was chubby and people made sure I knew it.
Once I was around ten, I was clinically obese. My Meme tried to do everything she could to help me. I went to dieticians, nutritionists and Curves. I tried fad diets like Slimfast and Adkins. I just wasn’t able to stick to anything.
At age 12, I started to become very depressed. I was bullied heavily in middle school and it was finally getting to me. I had a 13th birthday party coming up and I made a promise to myself that I was going to lose some weight. I joined Weight Watchers and went to the gym five times a week. I ended up losing 79 pounds.
I started gaining the weight back in 10th grade. I didn’t get as big as before, but I sure wasn’t small. My depression kept getting worse and I kept eating, it was a vicious cycle. I ended up leaving public school to take online classes. I couldn’t take the bullying any longer.
In my time away from public school, I learned a lot about myself. I finally found something that seemed like happiness. I graduated in 2010. I was fat but I was also decently happy.
I moved as far away from Pennsylvania as I could. I had always loved Toronto so I chose to go to university there and study political science. It was a very rough year. I had a hard time learning how to live on my own. I ordered a lot of take-out and I ate a lot of bad food.
I ended up leaving that school because I was not happy with what I was studying. I technically took a year off. I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia. I was happy to finally have an answer to all of the pain I was going through, but my future didn’t look bright. I hired a personal trainer to help me lose some weight but I never got until 280.
I went to Italy that summer for six weeks. I ended up falling in Venice and seriously sprained my ankle. I was too fat to use crutches and it took me forever to find a wheelchair. All and all my “vacation of a lifetime” was ruined because I was fat and clumsy.
I came back and started at a new school for something I actually love. I found my happy place. I became a leader in and out of the classroom because I was confident. I didn’t even hate my body anymore, I was just uncomfortable.
I finally decided that I deserved more. I started my six month pre-op diet in March. It has been a learning process, but a good one. I chose to focus more on health than losing weight. I lost 22 pounds total on the pre-op diet.
Starting Weight: 317
Pre Op Weight: 295
& now I’m having surgery tomorrow! I can’t believe that the day is finally here, it seems like I’ve waited a lifetime! Actually, I have! My new life starts tomorrow and I’ve never been more excited. Wish me luck!